Es gratis el Aire..

It was one if those days where no matter how much you fill your day with stuff you still cant get your mind of that one thing. Don't you wish you could just pull an Eternal Sunshine on your life sometimes.I could really use one of those memory erasers right about now. The reality is that I don't want to erase anything permanently just for a couple days at a time.
So what do I do to distract myself, the only thing (besides pray like I never have before) I know how to do, create. My mom has this old chair that I asked if I could recreate, so this is what has been taking up my time.(I'll post pictures later). Its a great chair and has turned out to be quite the project. The second day I worked on it I broke part of the back so I just glued it back on today, it was my first time using wood glue and I felt pretty special. I get excited about these things.  I also finally got all the cushions out and all the old fabric off, it was all stapled on very well so I sit on the floor and watch NetFlix while I remove them. I have watched my fair share of chick flicks, some good and some... well lets just say make me feel no worries about getting my own film produced.
These staples have been the most time consuming but every time I get one off I feel so accomplished. Like I'm slowly taking a thorn of this poor chairs back and arms. I guess I feel like this poor old chair at times, full of nasty painful staples. Anyway, I cut all the fabric out as well, and that made me very excited to see this project finished.
My parents and I went to LOWS and got some paint for it, its like a mustard yellow that reminds me of the smell of lemonade and summer.
As I worked on this chair I realized that things are not as bad as we may make them out to be, no matter how ugly some things may seem there is always something or Someone that can fix it, but it's usually not meant to be an overnight fix. My good friend Jenna Johnson reminded me to not fight the pain. I guess I'm grateful that I can feel pain.

New Start one day at a time

If I had a dollar for every "new start" I've had, I would be able to afford a nice meal at the Village Inn. I'm not going to say  that this time is different because I don't really  think that it is, but I think it might be.
My goal this time is to remember this ..

"Always remember that the future comes one day at a time." Dean Acheson

I have no idea who Dean Acheson is, but I think he knew what he was talking about.  I seem to forget  that I'm not going to just wake up one day and then "POOF" all better! I learned in institute last night that "POOF" does not exist. HA. I thought that was brilliant and a good reminder.
Anyways, this is a blog about life, my life and the many transformations it will take. That's all. I have recently taken up the hobby of creating and recreating. Its one of the most healing things that I have ever taken up. What I really want to create is a baby, but that's another story.  
 I decided to do this as a way to deal with a bad "break-up" if you want to call it that. I seemed to have completely lost myself in this situation and now I must once again find myself. it feels like Ive been searching for along time. Am I the only one who feels this way?